Self Love February, Day 25

Sometimes it’s hard not to look back on your life and have regrets; things you wish you had – or hadn’t – done. I can look back and identify many instances where I would change what I did.

Too bad we’re not going that way!

The Universe is going to give you the exact same lesson in different versions until you master it

Children are so in tune with themselves; they often don’t understand that they can’t do something or be someone. It’s as they go through pre-teens and teenagers when society starts influencing their perception of themselves – which isn’t always accurate.

For me, the perception that I had was “rebellious teenager”, working in my 20s in a Monday to Friday, 9-5 and partying on weekends. It’s like those were the expectations for someone my age. We literally partied our money away. Minimal saving, eating out every weekend, drunk most weekends….

Here’s the thing – I look back now and realize that that wasn’t me. That was my perceived societal expectations of someone my age. Sure, we had fun and had a great circle of friends, but I was doing nothing for myself. I wasn’t working on getting out of a job I hated. We were spending money faster than we were saving it – it was the start of our decades in debt.

My younger self would be proud of me today for coming back to myself. My true self, living my authentic life. Out of debt and working on myself for myself. In a growth mindset and embracing change. Back to creating art.

I look back now and sometimes regret the amount of time I wasted trying to be someone I wasn’t. However, I always think of a specific quote:

GROW THROUGH WHAT YOU GO THROUGH

I wouldn’t be the person I am today if it wasn’t for the lessons – though I could have done without some of the more painful ones!

What would your younger self be proud of?